Okay...so I know I vowed to be religious about blogging. I also realize that this promise was made over a two years ago. I can't believe how fast time is flying by. So many things have happened since I last blogged, most important of them being that my beautiful Hudson Nicholas was born. He graced us with his presence on 1/3/11 with the easiest labor of them all. He has been sleeping at night pretty much since the night we brought him home from the hospital...and for that I owe much gratitude to the Man Upstairs! I prayed my entire pregnancy for a healthy baby first. My next prayer was that this baby would be calm and subdued. I told God that I knew he wouldn't give me more than I could handle (that has been my mantra since my last pregnancy and miscarriage.) I think about that little angel that is up in Heaven shining down on us. I mostly think about how its hanging out with my Grandpas up there and how I will meet him/her someday. What a difficult thing that was to go through. I, for some reason or another, felt as if I was immune to that whole miscarriage thing. I guess when you have two seemingly perfect pregnancies and deliveries you feel like nothing can ever go wrong. Boy was I blown away when that actually did happen to us! I was devastated but I knew that it was all in God's hands. Little did I know at that time that my little Huddie Bear was waiting to come down and meet us! I feel so blessed. That brings me to this...the fact that I am all alone in the female department. I am surrounded by boys. In all actuality, I am very very okay with this. I hear tell of how much drama comes a long with little girls...and then they grow up...and more drama ensues. I am met over and over with the question, "So are you going to try again for a girl?" The answer is that I haven't been 'trying' for a girl with any of these pregnancies, so no...I won't be trying again for a girl. I can't say, however, that I am done having babies. It must take a really strong feeling of being done to say that. I am, after all, only 29 years old. I'm struggling just a little bit with saying goodbye to my twenties and I can't imagine at all saying goodbye simultaneously to my childbearing years. I, luckily, have a husband who is completely open to having more children so, who knows? I know one thing, though...it won't be anytime soon! I need a couple of these rascals to be in school first! I think I could ramble on forever but I will cut this off here for now.
2 comments:
Becca.. I feel so blessed to be your sister and be called an Aunt by those little boys of yours. They make me so happy just by being around. Everything happens for a reason and I'm so excited to see what kind of person Hud is. I already love him so much. I can't imagine my life before having them around!! Love you.
I'm so happy to have discovered your blog! :)
I totally know what you were describing there at the end. People ask me all of the time if we're done, if we're going to try for a girl, etc. etc. etc. It can get to be a little frustrating. (Which is why I blogged something very similar to this a few weeks ago!) :)
You are an amazing mommy! Whether you keep going or stay put, you will do great either way!
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